checking in with reality

so as some of you know, i had been planning on taking my licensing exam for shiatsu by the end of the month. i've now decided not to after a number of attempts at sitting down and trying to study. i have found two problems - 1) i get really tired and end up falling asleep and 2) i'm noticing that i'm trying to teach myself stuff that my teacher didn't spend a lot of time on (probably because she didn't know it) when i should just be reviewing it. i noticed that it was becoming overwhelming and that this was pretty much why. i really had to sit down and think it through because it's not a cheap test to take AT ALL. the huge downside is that the test is only once a year. the plus side is that i don't need it to practice right now. sure it'd feel really great to have it and actually feel like i accomplished something but it will have to wait. so in the meantime, i'll take bits and pieces and read this stuff over and learn it at a reasonable pace and be better prepared for next year. it's kind of disappointing but things could be worse, no?

so who wants to help me build my stamina AND help me earn a lil extra money on the side to save for this test?